I've been in a bit of a funk lately.

What does that mean?

Well, I don't really know to tell you the truth. All I know is I am totally unmotivated to do anything. I haven't been writing. I haven't been keeping up with my blogging friends. I haven't been reading any of the many "to be read" books laying around my house. I haven't even kept up on housekeeping (the days I am home, anyway). Even my garden is feeling the effects, but I haven't killed it!



I get up and go to work...then leave with no plans to do anything or go anywhere besides home. Once I am home, I plop my butt in front of my home computer and play mindless games, mindless Internet surfing, or mindless chatter on Facebook. I haven't cooked for myself in over a week, choosing to either forage around the kitchen or grab fast food. My laundry has piled up... most of it clean, just heaped in baskets on the bedroom floor. My fridge needs a good cleaning. My floors all need vacuumed and mopped. I have clutter sitting all over the house, and a layer of dust on top of it all!



I recognize all that needs to be done, but I just turn my back to it. It's not that I am being lazy (or maybe I am?). I'm not depressed about anything (or life in general). I just don't feel like doing it. A pouty little voice in my head says "I don't wanna, so I'm not gonna!" I tell myself that I'll do it later, or the next day. No motivation, no desire. Surprise, Surprise! It hasn't gotten done.



Sometimes I wish I lived closer to town and I had drop in visitors! That would give me motivation to kick myself in the ass and clean, at least. Once the house is clean, I am sure all my other simple pleasures would fall into place. I hope so, anyway! Anyone want to come visit so I can give this idea a try? :-)



Maybe I am all off kilter because my weekends have been too busy? I haven't had a Saturday morning to dedicate to housekeeping in a few weeks now. I'm not complaining.... I have been loving the idea of cabin sitting for Albert. The forest is so peaceful, and the cabin cozy. I am ecstatic that I get two more weekends up on the Continental Divide before giving the keys back. The manual labor of cutting, splitting, and stacking firewood feels good to the body and gives me a sense of accomplishment. I will write about this experience in another post. I need time to put all of the feelings into words.... and decide which photos to post out of the many that I have taken!



Maybe the juxtaposition of the two lifestyles is what is causing this strange funk I am in? Only time will tell.

Is Cheesecake with caramel sauce diet food?

Yeah, I know it isn't! But I had a weak moment. Who knew Pizza Hut now sold Cheesecake??!! By the time dessert rolled around, I was already so far off my diet, I knew THIS wouldn't do any more harm. Joe and I went for some hot wings, then ordered a personal sized pasta meal. I only ate half, saving the other half for lunch, but then the waitress tempted me,and I am a weak... very weak... soul when cheesecake is offered. I would sell secrets for this stuff! LOL

So, that meal last night most likely just tipped the scale the wrong way, but that is ok. It's not like I am going to eat like that everyday. The weekend is almost upon us and I can do an extra aerobic tape (DVD, old terms die hard) tonight and again tomorrow. Like I said in an earlier post, I am not weighing in except on the 15th and last day of the month, so come Monday I'll post a status report.

I have been having fun exploring Facebook. I have been playing a game there called Mob Wars, which at one time I had played online way before Facebook was around. Nothing like mugging someone, or breaking and entering to feel nostalgic! LOL It's all just fun and games, RELAX!

We don't have much planned for this weekend, but I have a mountain of laundry to do, change my bed linens, vacuum, and all those other weekend chores we working ladies have to do. (UGH!) There is a reason I have a magnet on my house door that reads " I don't Do Housework... I just turn off the lights!"